A Prayer for NOW

This week I attended my parish lenten mission. It was a very moving experience and the spirit was moving for sure. The simple message to " let God in to do the work " , " let go of struggle and allow God space in your life " " Letting go and change is hard but God can break down your barries if you let him in ". Wow very powerful and of course very relevant to me and Blaise.

I finally get it ! I am not in control ! Things are going to work out as they are meant to be. Why do I keep trying to " do it on my own " and try to pretend that I have control over when and how our adoption story is going to turn out. What a relief ! Now I can just continue to enjoy life and live in the NOW.

A Prayer for NOW

Lord, let me be where I am, right now. Let me accept myself and love myself as i am right now - this moment , without a single thing being differnet.

You love me now. Let me love me now ! Lord, let me live in the now because you are there.

I can't meet you in the past or the future. If that is where I always am, I will miss you and I will miss what you are doing now!

I want to be able to see the beauty of what you are about.

Lord, help me to be silent for at least a few moments. Help me to quiet not only my tongue, but also my restless mind and heart.

If I cannot be quiet, how will I ever hear your gentle voice pleading with me to come to you and receive your rest ?

( shared by Fr. A.MacDonald Companions of the Cross )

Nameste

Karen

Date Night

Blaise and I had a good old fashion date night Friday night. It was our first time together skating on the Halifax Oval. It was a cold clear night but was great for skating. It was so much fun and it was packed. Lots of mixture of ages and skating abilitites. I have always loved to skate but only get skating about once or twice a year. It does not take me long to get my " skates" underneath me and skate like the wind. I like the freedom and sense of floating that skating provides. Blaise of course is on the ice a couple of times a week, with officiating roles. I think I cramped his skating style but we had lots of laps and had a great time.

Such a great thing to see folks out enjoying winter in Halifax.

Cheers
Karen

Date Night

Hot summmer and hormones

OK I am definitely not complainging about the glorious streak of warm weather the Maritimes are having. Great to finally be able to get out and enjoy and sit outside in the evenings. However this hot spell has coincided with my hormones going all wacky. I was so confident that menopause ( surgically induced) would just pass me by.

It is not nice to not feel like yourself and not in control of your emotions. Do you remember what is felt like to be a 12 ro 13 yr old girl figurirng out what the hell was going on when you went through puberty? Well for me menopause is kind of like that. I mean I am truly not that bad and very grateful that I am healthy and have a wonderful patient husband. However I pride myself on being very self aware and in touch with my feelings but WOW this in so intense.

I am working with my Naturpath who is wonderful and waiting for hormone evaluation from saliva test. Saliva test is the most accurate picture of hormone levels.The heat has really thrown off my walking scheudule so I am missing the evening walk with Piper this always settles me down and then I can relax with " Nighty Night " organic tea. Sleep continues to elude me, so that makes Karen very irritable.

I guess I have to go through this to once again get to the other side. I want to make sure that I am well balanced before we adopt. Still no word on homestudy so perhaps that is a good thing. OK GOD you have a plan for me I just have to accecpt that. ( However would you hurry up a little I am getting cranky !)


Menopausal Momma
Karen

NOW

BIG BROTHER IS NOW AMONG US!

That's right....as of this afternoon, Sunday, June 28, 2009, BIG BROTHER DAVE is now online at

daveodonnell1@gmail.com

I'm sure he'll be glad to here from all of you, but don't expect a speedy reply just yet.

Hi Family

I would like to thank all the family members who attended Erin's CD release. It was so nice to see all of you. I wish I could have stayed longer. Erin did a super job on both Friday night and Sunday afternoon. We are so proud of her.

Andrew thanks for the great day Saturday. It was a lot of fun hanging out with you

While I was in Halifax Gillian and Andrew arranged for a doctor friend to do a sonagram so I could see my first grand baby. It was amazing and very emotional. We watched the baby suck his or her thumb and kick his or her legs all around. It was great. Thank you both so much for that.

Corinne and Jim are wonderful as always. Thank you for Saturday night it was nice to see so many nieces and nephews.

Bye for now, Love to all of you